Divine Romance

It's amazing to me how much Christ suffered on my behalf and how little I have been willing to suffer in His name. He was beaten, rejected by those He loved, accused, betrayed, and hated. I get my feelings hurt if someone picks on me or looks at me the wrong way.
What if, we are doing it wrong. Matthew16:24 says we are to deny ourselves, take up our cross and follow Him. I don't want to submit myself to rejection, betrayal and hurt, I don't want to carry the burden of responsibility, I don't want to walk the road before me. I see that it is the right thing to do, I see that it is most likely God's Will, but I don't want to do it.
I recall the crucifixion and realize, Jesus didn't want to do any of the things He chose to do. He did them for me. He asks me to do these things for Him. I now have the choice. I must decide whether or not I will be a party to the Divine Romance.