I DON'T WANT TO!

I just found out that I am going to have to do the hardest thing in my life, thus far. I won't go into the particulars, but let me say, I would rather shut myself up in the house right now and never emerge again than to do what I will choose to do on Friday. I don't want to do it! I don't want to! I suppose there is no point to this post. There is no productive thing that I can say, right now. There is no silver lining in this cloud, that I can see. I can find no good in this situation at all, from my perspective. Does anyone else think that maybe God is pushing a little too hard? Does anyone else think that maybe God could just cut me a little slack? I'll be done now.